Pondering

So I generally think I am a sort of wall flower personality.  Yet at the same time there is apparently a part of me that is screaming are you flipping nuts?  Well the answer to that is yes.  How I see myself and how my friends see me is very different.  Not necessarily in a bad way but ultimately very different.  I've always cooked.  I cooked in college.  I never thought I cooked anything all that great or even inspiring but reconnecting with a college friend it was the main thing he remembered about me from college.  He was more or less the second person to say the same thing in a matter of months. 

The best part about this reflection is I think my cooking has only gotten better.  I'm sure I'll be posting recipes at some point on here.  Right now, not a whole lot of cooking going on. 

The other thing is I always knew I was going to college.  Where tended to be the part that was up in the air.  It was helpful that my parents let us know early it was get a scholarship or live at home and go to Lander.  I'm not knocking Lander in any way shape or form.  It's a great school especially if you want to be a nurse or a teacher.  Neither of those have ever been my calling.  Seriously me trying to teach kids without the use of corporal punishment not happening.  So I went to College of Charleston because they offered me a pretty nice scholarship.  My three roommates my freshman year did not have scholarships.  Their parents were paying for it.  They all had cars and paid parking spots (you had to be a sophomore to get school parking). 

I never really thought about how I came across in college.  Until I reconnected with a long lost college friend that I was very happy to hang out with some before I left.  Too bad we didn't realize we had both basically moved back to Charleston about the same time.

What she remembers is that it was a hardship for my parents to send me to school.  I did not monkey around. Classwork came first, then theatre and then having fun.  Purpose of will.  I'm learning that is more how I need to describe myself.